The idea for this site came from the lovely Lunargirl, although she had no idea about the seed she planted in me. Lina was going to Iceland to do some MWC things, and see Björk live in Reykjavik. The idea that someone in my life was going to be so close to Björk.. it got me thinking. When I last saw Björk, at the Paramount in Oakland, I wanted to meet her. I didn't know what I was going to say, but I just wanted to walk right up to her, and give her my lucky charm, my necklace. It sounds silly, I know, but I promised myself that if ever given the chance, I would give it to her.

I wear it around my neck everyday. I almost never take it off. It's a symbol of protection that was given to me several years ago, and is very much a part of me. Lina was going to Iceland, and I got the idea to write a letter, package up the necklace, send it to Lina, and she could give it to Björk.

I never mentioned my idea to Lina.. In fact, I felt awful. That is too much to ask someone, and Lina, I'm sorry the thought ever crossed my mind.

A few days later, the idea was still tugging at my heart. I felt so guilty.. Those of you who know Lina, know that she is the sweetest person ever. And if I proposed this idea to her, she'd probably do it, but I could never put her in such an awkward position.

Sometimes I like to write letters to people, and the just tuck them away in a box. They never get sent, they never get read. I thought I would do the same.. write a letter, and keep it for myself. That way, no one else would be involved, no feelings would be hurt, no harm would be done. Perhaps one day, if I got the chance to meet Björk, I would give it to her.. and I was content with this idea.

Why do I want to write a letter to Björk? I guess it is a way of thanking her. We don't know each other, but her words have nurtured me for many years. I basically raised myself, and I didn't have anyone to look up to, no one to turn to. My mom worked, my dad was god knows where, my sister is so much older, and all I had was my headphones. This is a letter of gratitude, for without Björk's music, I probably wouldn't be the person I am today.

I remember, I was in the shower when the concept of this site came to me. I have always wanted to have my own Björk site. I host four of them sugarcube, but I wanted my own. I had a small one in 1997, but it was shortlived. I wanted to create a Björk site that no one else has done before, and this is it. Although, the idea of having people read my letter was a bit scary for me. Sometimes you have to take chances, and be scared.

The focus of this website has changed. Orginally it was very simple. From me, to Björk. Very private, very simple. I didn't want to do it that way, but it was the only way I knew how. I was scared. Scared to open myself up, to show myself to anyone who came across this page. I was playing it safe.. If Björk saw this, then my project would be complete.

As I started diving deeper into this, into myself, I realized something. This site has changed me. I know that sounds kind of geeky to say; "A website changed my life!", but it did.. in the best way possible. I have never poured myself out in the open before, well, only once.. and the rewards for that were immense.

I want to share this intense feeling! I would be much to selfish to keep it all to myself. I guess this website should be titled "A letter to Björk and her fans.", because it is not just for her, not anymore. Instead of trying to reach one person, I can maybe reach dozens of people, people who have the same feelings as I do, that just haven't found their way to the surface.

I encourage everyone to read this site with an open mind and heart. Take it all in. You might not fully understand it, but this is me. I mentioned before I only once publically opened up about what's inside. Those who were there.. knew everything that I said, came direct from my heart. This will be no different.

I have high hopes about what could become of this site. Once I started putting things together, a bright idea came to me. This is, so far, the only site out there like this. I know I won't be the only one for long, in fact, I don't want to be. As earlier stated, I really loved making this site. It is a part of me, and it has opened my eyes to so much. I wish everyone could feel like this. I hope, that if other Björk fans (or anyone, really..) reads this, they will also be inspired to create something similar. Please read this page for information.

Lastly, This site is a work in progress. I may add, or change things around. Feedback is always welcome, of course, but please.. be gentle with me.